My new school!! Well at least I think I made my final decision. I keep going back and forth between Irvine & Santa Barbara, but I believe I have a bigger "pro" list than "con" for SB. For one, I know nothing about Irvine and have been to SB like four times (3 out of the 4 to party, lol). Two, I got accepted into their Honors Program. Three, I will actually know a few people there. And four, their Communications program there is way stronger than Irvine. I guess I just had to really think about it for a second, I mean it really is hopefully only two years of my life!! Just the thought about moving there "all by myself" is pretty scary. The only "con" I could come up with for SB was getting caught in the party scene and just getting myself into bad habits. But, I completely realized that isn't me and that as long as i assure myself that I'm going there for the right reasons, I'll be ohk.
AHHHH!!! I'm going to SANTA BARBARA!!! i need a drink, asap. haha
With this year's season of America's Next Top Model, I've picked my top two favorites. Allison, a New Orleans native with a unique look, which is vital in this competition/industry. In order to be a top model or supermodel you need to be unique and I think her blue bug-eyed eyes definitely make her stick out. If only she didn't seem so "shy" all the time!!Fo, a woman of African American and Mexican decent is also a top contender. I think her freckles make her stand out as well as her contagious personality. Plus she's FIERCEEEE. Who doesn't love some fierceness?
We booked our hotel for our New York trip in May. We'll be staying at the Paramount Hotel in the theater district. I believe our location is practically the best since we're 0.5 blocks from central park, 3 blocks from Times Square, and 2 miles from Manhattan! I honestly can't wait. The atmosphere, food, clothing, NYC nightlife, and NYC boys! AHHH! Our trip is seriously in one month. Crazzzyy. <33
Probably the best picture of me the whole night! haha
Wow. Man has my twenty-first birthday been stressful and crazy from the beginning. This is how it basically went down:
Wednesday, April 15th - My real birthday. After school, I have a fabulous sushi dinner with mi familia. Later that night Christina, Mike, Hart, Jamie, & Ha take me out to The City for a few drinks. The first place we went to was called Lime and was super chic and modern. The bartender loved us and kept offering us free drinks! It didn't help that he was cute either. But then again all the bartenders that night were super cute! Anyways, we ended up moving to B.O.C (Bar On Church), where numerous guys offered me free drinks since it was my birthday! How could I have said "no?" Too bad I should have. I ended up blacking out, leaving my jacket there, which had both my wallet and keys. My credit card and debit card end up being stolen. Thank Jeebus the thieves were considerate in leaving my keys and ID in my jacket. I am very very thankful Christina & Hart both went back to the place to retrieve my belongings. I cannot thank them enough!!
Thursday, April 16th - I'm pretty much scarred for life when I wake up and my shizz is all gone!! I end up calling Vince to work for me as I file a police report, cancel my bank cards, etc. At the same time I feel sick as hell since I'm completely hung over. There's so much more detail to this horrible situation, but I'll leave that up to your imagination. It was seriously like one huge domino effect.I ended up throwing up all over my hallway at night. Thanks sister for taking care of your stupid bro bro. I have learned my lesson.
Friday, April 17th - It's the day of Jessica & I's birthday bash at Sino Restaurant and Lounge. I run a few errands in the morning. Meet up with Krystle, Jamal, and Sophia who end up taking me to the hotel around 5pm. We get ready and end up at the restaurant around 6:50pm, which means we're late since the dinner started at 6:30pm. But to my surprise, there's about seven out of about thirty-seven guests in the room. Frantic hits Jessica & I as we realize that most of our guests are practically thirty minutes late! From this point, I'm just completely stressed. A few people end up not showing and two end up leaving, which stresses me out even more because we have to pay for their asses! At least my friends and family had a good time as most of them were drunk. I was just so bothered that they all were and I was just completely stressed out, and it was MY BIRTHDAY! WTF. Occasionally a few of my friends would leave me and I just felt like I was celebrating my birthday all by myself. I think that was something that made me feel even more stressed, that when I needed maybe one of them, I had none. I know that my stress probably played a part in that they didn't want to be around it or me cause I was overtly stressed, but I didn't get much comfort at all. AHH! I just really ended up feeling uncomfortable at my own celebration, which made me really sad. And on top of that, other friends just irritated the shit out of me, drama and inconsideration really sucks ass. I'm glad I had my family there from the beginning till the very end. As I thought a few friends were going to stay with me at my hotel that I booked with Jessica, they ended up not. So I called a few of my cousins and my sister and they were able to drive all the way back to San Jose and stay with me. Thanks again to my wonderful family for being there, always. We always say it to each other, and I just can't say it enough, "Without each other we would never be who we are. I LOVE YOU GUYS!" Other then that, at this point I'm not too sure how to feel about my birthday. Just that it was one whole HOT MESS, personally. But I do know one thing and that is that I'm overwhelmingly thankful for everyone that has greeted me Happy Birthday and has been there for me during this memorable and hopefully never again stressful twenty-first birthday. <33
I just wanted to thank a few people:
Jessica: For partnering with me in celebrating this memorable even t in both of our lives! I forever love you. I'm glad we both stressed our together, because if had only been me, I'm sure I would have jumped out of the window in our hotel room. I could not have imagined planning all this shizz by myself. I love you. Happy 21st Birthday to us!!
Keith: For being able to put up with our crazy plans and financing it! lol Don't worry, Jessica & I got you back!
Christina: For being able to buy two thirty dollar cupcake tiers, practically make all our 40+ invitations, making over 50+ cupcakes, and for more I probably can't remember. I LOVE YOU and will give your ass a call when I get married. LOL
Here's eye candy I'm sure all of you would like to see from our birthday bash on Friday. <33
I guess when your career has gone down the crapper you resort to shaving part of your head. I'm totally feeling a Alice Dellal + Britney via crack days + Amber Rose. Way to be original Cassie.
p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA!!!
My friends & I give the best birthday presents ever! Happy 21st Birthday Sophia! =))
So despite driving on the bridge behind a car watching porn, a man peeing directly in front of us, a cat fight before Lily went on, a car on fire, drinks being spilled on us by many douche bags, some pushing & shoving, and ice cream, the Lily Allen concert was AMAZING!! I never thought she would seem so good live, but she's surprisingly good! Though she was drinking while she was singing (not surprised) and had no bra on during the second half of the show, the overall concert was still amazing. It's getting late, here some eye candy.
AHHH! Sorry for the lame picture quality. My freaking digital camera died right after my first picture! So I had to take pictures with my BB. =(
I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned that no matter how much I care some people just don't care back.
I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.
I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And, just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I've learned that heroes are people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you can’t.
